Lives In the Balance

Listening to a co-worker expound on the last five years of the company.

(Assuming he knows what he's talking about. I'm always a little skeptical.)

Where does he get his information?

But he's the loudest, brashest voice.

A lot of wheeling dealing, back room, shady going-ons.

I thought beforehand that I had an idea ..... but I really had no idea what was happening.

The end of one company and its takeover by another.

Big future plans. 

Then again, the same voice sounded as if the end was near just a few weeks ago.

Flashbacks ...... 

I mostly remember the emotions of the changeover. 

Fear, slight optimism, rumors, more fear ..... waiting for final decisions. 

Listening online to court proceedings unsure what was being said.

Happy to know I was coming back tomorrow .... but beyond that????

Lives in the balance. (A JB album/song title.)

A lot has happened since.

I try to replay the progression in my head and forget much.

Sometimes I get the chronological order of events wrong.

More total chaos than I ever care to experience again.

I shook my head often thinking: "No way!!" .... Then watched a way develop.

But I've never felt fully assured of the future.

Sunset from October, 2021. The flocks heading south. Geese I think. I don't care much for geese up close. Ugly birds in my estimation but they can sure fill up the sky and provide a noisy soundtrack during a colorful, western Oregon autumn evening.