Hazy State of Mind

I don't know if I can explain or write on this adequately.

I have these frequent flashbacks to younger days, and they seem so vivid and recent .....

..... even the moments from fifty-plus years ago.

And there's this fog .... or hazy state of mind where it seems like I should be able to return. 

To live it again!!

And then, this sense of near desperation and sadness when I realize that experience is gone.

Like I already knew it but for a moment you allow your treasured memories to wander about your consciousness.

That's the saddest part of lost youth ..... not that you are much closer to the last days but that those moments you remember fondly could only be realized during those specific moments in time.

Never again!! Gone!!

And the memories are not nearly enough.

Do you know what I mean? 

Evening of a supermoon in July 2023. I always get so giddy with excitement beforehand. In a perfect world, there would be one supermoon per month with a guarantee of visibility in those moments of its rising.