The 50th

My 50th high school reunion is being planned for later this year and I struggle with if I want to go. There's a voice in my head that makes it feel like a requirement that I attend yet I doubt if anyone outside of a facebook friend or two that I've had contact with, would notice if I went missing. That's not feeling sorry for myself it's just how life has worked out over the years. 

I do know that it would end up being a major regret if I don't go.

I've made my thoughts known over the past few years that any reunions should be held at the old high school. I want to walk the halls again and remember old times. I want to sit for a meal in the cafeteria. I want to stand up against the wall again (if I can remember the spot) and people watch. 

That's not an idea that anyone seems to share with me .....

....... And it seems so obvious to me!!!  

I'm pretty confident that current school district officials and high school staff (including janitorial), could let loose a bunch of 68-year-olds to wander the hallways with minimal supervision. 

And just maybe, that unrealized rumor from the final weeks of senior year of the imminent appearance of a streaker, would be revived and actually happen.

Also to consider ....  I know that once there, if I have an experience measured in the most minute amounts of enjoyment, that I'll most surely struggle mightily with the emotions of walking away at the end of the evening .... just like I did with the graduation ceremony all those years ago.

To be continued .....