Another Passing

I see that another longtime co-worker has passed away. Makes you stop and wonder about that person's life and final days and things between you that you wish had played out differently and think about your own remaining time.

I know a little of the person's lifestyle situation and find it all so sad. I pray that he didn't pass away alone and feeling fear. If his passing is true, I feel sad to say that it's not a surprise. He's been retired for a few years but stopped by work a few months ago to visit and looked frighteningly frail and in poor health.

It seems like just a short time ago when he was full of life, humor, and some anger and sarcasm. That was just his personality. It became expected. Charming and enjoyable to be around one minute, the opposite the next. Someone told me years ago that he was diagnosed as bi-polar. He had his issues, conflicts with others and quirks but then we all do. But even anger and sarcasm are being alive!! It amazes and frightens me how a person declines and fades away so quickly. I guess it wasn't truly a quick process but when you picture how you always knew the person, then two or three years pass and you compare that visual to the final time that you saw him a few months ago, the image and process ..... for lack of a better term, is shocking and seems to have happened overnight.

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So it's several days later and I've heard that he was found unconscious in his house by neighbors who went in after not seeing him for a few days. He was in the hospital for ten days where he was asked if he wanted the needed care to prolong life a little longer and he declined and asked them to "let him go." (to let him pass away not go home.) Sounds like he was just weary of the fight that his later years had become.
(1-26-19)