2019!!

2019 is here!!! I'll celebrate with a book, a little music and a movie!!

Once again I'll say, I never could imagine this year arriving when I was a teenager. 1974 to 2019 ….. Isn't that like seventy or eighty years of time? OK I guess it's obvious that I wasn't a math major. But those years in between do seem like an eternity while also feeling like yesterday.

Around 8:00pm last night I found myself wishing very badly that I could at least make it another four hours. Who the heck wants their time to end in the final minutes of a year about to change? I wanted to be able to say that I made it through the transition!!! Especially this one because of health issues I was presented with earlier. Now I can look to 2020!!

I still struggle with the question: Does God exist? But for what it's worth, I do believe in the power of prayer. For whatever reason it does ease my mind from what's causing tension.

I seem to get asked about once a week, when am I going to retire? People my age get obsessed with retirement. "When are you retiring?" has replaced "Hi, how are you?" on the list of most often uttered conversational topics. Am I the only person my age that doesn't feel excitement about the R-word? I've always figured that I'd just KNOW when it was time and maybe I need someone to hit me over the head with a board but I don't feel that knowledge yet.

So tonight, I'm in my annual state of extended holiday confusion where I'm thinking it's Saturday and where in fact it's actually Tuesday.

Regarding the ongoing struggle, complexities and contradictions that come with being 60-something ….. I think that it's both funny and frustrating how at midnight, getting up at 6:00am and going out to breakfast seems like such a great and stimulating idea but a few hours later at 5:00am, that same thought feels like the dumbest idea that any single person has ever formed.

My resolution for the new year is to clear out the saved content on my cable box dvr and I've managed to get it from 22% of capacity down to 3% so I'm feeling pretty proud about that.