I don't know what's wrong with me lately? I don't know what's going on? I've have these dreams recently where I'm standing there in the end, totally humiliated or left feeling totally alone in the world ..... and then I wake up and it's such a relief to know that in real life I'm not quite stuck in such dire circumstances.
But I still feel drained in a way. Like everything enjoyable has been torn away from me for that moment and even though it's just a dream, there's still a very real recovery process that takes place.
And then after a while .... and several of these dreams .... you begin to wonder if maybe it's more than just some random, strange dreams .... if maybe it goes deeper than all that? I know that in the last five years, I've been 'trending' toward hermit status but while it bothers me somewhat, I haven't found it too terribly horrific or paralyzing or anything. It's just the way it is with surrounding life events, circumstances and life transitions. Anyway, that's how I thought I was looking at it.
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