I wish that I could articulate my feelings these days on spending Christmas with family. But until someone cares to ask .... and truly listen to what I'm saying. Well then it will mostly just stay buried. I've hinted at things but it's like when someone asks you how you're doing. They don't really want to hear anything other than "Great. Thanks for asking." No one wants to sit there and listen as you go into details. They can't comprehend that there just might be something else going on.
I made a decision several years ago that I was no longer going to participate in anything that I didn't enjoy. It wasn't just a quick emotional reaction to just one instance but rather to several years of feelings that something was wrong. Most people just can't understand how large get-togethers at Christmas can fall into that category for a person. It's not just that though. There's other factors that just don't belong here being detailed for public consumption. (Not that I have actual followers or readers.)
So I look forward and hope that the next few days will just pass by quickly. Usually I want time to slow down but this week it's OK if it fast forwards.
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