Please don't ask me to explain because I can't ..... well maybe partially I can but don't care to.
I've just become consumed with this feeling over the past year.
Concerned with being seen out in the world by others.
Wanting to avoid places where there are shadows or reflections.
Wanting to mostly hide from the world.
I don't mind being around co-workers because they've seen me daily all through this change in self-esteem and the time leading up to it. I feel accepted there.
But around others, I'm not so comfortable.
I saw an old classmate (first grade through high school) in the store a few months ago ..... an old 7th and 9th grade basketball teammate and someone I've crossed paths with occasionally since those school days ..... I recognized him from a distance and turned and went the other way, afraid to approach him because of this place I've come to in life and how I view myself.
Is getting older a graceful and painless process for anyone?
Does it change everyone?
Does anyone survive it intact?
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