I think I may have crossed paths today with that lady that I always think of as being from my dreams. And she even smiled as I approached, walked from the corner that she was standing on, to the one I was waiting on to cross the street, smiled again and spoke to me, sharing a laugh about not remembering where her car was parked. And instead of my usual freezing up, I actually thought to myself: "Say something!!" and responded to her mentioning problems with the same issue. That's progress for me! Though afterwards, thought of two or three (or a dozen) things that I should have said instead .... like "Ahhhhh I thought maybe you were going to the record store." That sounds like a good invite type of line without being too blatantly obvious.
I try to laugh about it but feel so awkward afterwards and just want to kick myself. Like I have no social skills or coolness. Coolness as in not appearing indifferent and aloof and knowing what to say when thrust into a sudden social encounter besides uttering a yes or no. Someone might be trying to make a connection and I'd never know. Maybe they should stomp on my foot or hit me with a sledgehammer!! Maybe the only thought on her mind was getting home but hey, I'll never know.
Such a fool I can be!!!
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