The Ex-Wife Dream

Long dream last night with a starring appearance by the ex-wife.

What's difficult about this kind of long running dream is that you wake up feeling like it was real and the person is so close and you have moments where you have this residual effect where you actually expect to see them if you walk into the other room. Then the sudden and chilling realization that it's been thirty-five years. And it's a bit of a shock ..... that transition from the carry-over expectation to reality.

And yet it's not a complete transition. Almost twenty-four hours later now and I can still feel her presence.

And now it's funny .... I want to return to that place in the dream, yet I know it's probably best that I don't.

And something else that's difficult is that I'll likely keep this whole experience to myself. Unless I have readers here that I'm unaware of. Because who's going to understand? What can anyone say besides get over it? All I'd want is someone who would listen.

And I don't know where this dream came from. I swear that I'm well beyond the days where I felt the pain of her absence. I don't think about her much anymore. I've made peace with all that. Yet there she was in my dream world, hanging around. Erasing the space between then and now.

I wasn't initially going to write about it but it's different that every other dream experienced, even other ex-wife dreams, in that it's yet to fade away in the slightest. Not even a slow dissolution, leaving me shaken.