I have this issue that's been causing frustration. I seemingly can't perform some general function at work without walking away and moments later beginning to have doubts. Did I really lock that door and turn out those lights? Did I hit the send key for the email I composed? The questions repeat. The voices get louder!! Once the doubts set in, I have to go back and check. Occasionally a third time. Just to make sure that the door is really locked. Or whatever the situation of the moment required. And 99.9% (or more) of the time, the double-check was not needed. This little dance plays out far too often. I'd love to just turn and walk away, secure in the thought that I had successfully followed through on matters ... with no voices casting doubts, and just go home.
Onset of dementia? I don't think so. This has been my operational mode for over thirty years since I was charged with opening and closing the facilities of various local public schools used for youth sports programs. I've always wanted to be certain and just the slightest amount of uncertainty would build until I had no choice but to turn around and check again
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