Updated Status

I've known that there was practically no chance but the updated status report via text message still stings. I still held a microscopic amount of hope. Even though the odds were less than winning the lottery. Regardless of having years to sort it all out and accept my place. I still felt dead inside for a few seconds, maybe even a moment or two. Like being betrayed by the one you just couldn't imagine being capable. This being a minor but lingering shock. I know the words were carefully considered and as well meaning as possible. But still it hurts. Not an emotionally paralyzing sting but much more than apathy or indifference. An small investment of hope that didn't work out. But any amount of hope is still hope. Maybe I was guilty of an unrealistic reach for the most distant of stars.