Another disturbing dream last night. A continuing theme over the past year or two. I have no idea where they come from and no doubt that I want them to stop. I wake up upset. Then the feeling from the dream lingers for awhile. I wonder if it's karma getting back at me for some act(s) in my past.
The dreams generally involve family or longtime friends treating me as an outcast. Often in the form of being shunned or the "silent treatment." I wake up feeling confused and hurt before realizing that it's only a dream. The feeling though, takes awhile to fade away. Like a slow lifting fog. And while it lingers it's a lonely and cold place. Realizing that it's just a dream rarely helps to speed up the process. Realizing that I'm almost 60 years old and far beyond this teenage themed stuff doesn't seem to matter. I end up thinking of times in the past where I was less than an ideal human being and wonder if this is payback?
I suppose as long as the dreams don't become more frequent and more intense, I shouldn't be too concerned. But being me, I have a tendancy to over-analyze things.
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