Sunday, January 28, 2024

Pothole

In that fraction of a second I caught a glimpse of something up ahead .....

I had time to think to myself: "That can't be what I think it is. Not in the middle of downtown on the busiest street in town. No way the city would allow that because I'll be changing a flat tire if they did so that can't be what it looks like because the city would have been out here in a flash, filling this in" ..... I was wrong

I had time to think the above but not the time to change course. It's funny just how much can flash through your mind in a split second.

The deepest pothole I've ever driven through. It felt like I was in up to my lugnuts.

Saturday, January 27, 2024

Brian

It was a bit of a shock ....

The guy (Brian) that owned a small record store in town where I would occasionally drop in, well yesterday I learned of his sudden passing. 

He was a bit eccentric. Coming and going on what I always assumed was his motorcycle parked next to the entrance. His shop was overcrowded with music. In every nook and cranny and in every aisle and corner. I think he reached a point where he stopped organizing recently acquired merchandise. It was an adventure just getting past the front door. Boxes everywhere. New arrivals stacked on top of older inventory. The place was often kept dark and cold. I assume to keep his overhead down. He must have noticed my squinting because he would turn some lights on after a few minutes inside.

He was friendly enough to me. I used to complain that he wouldn't leave me alone to browse ..... reminding me every few minutes that he could order practically anything for me or that he had a few boxes that he'd be bringing in with jazz I might like, or of his return policy .... "If you get this home and just don't like it, bring it back and I'll give you a full credit towards something else." He would ask me what I do for a living and never remember my responses from the previous visit. 

Once while browsing, he told me that he had to lock up and take some online purchases to the post office before they closed and that he'd be back in fifteen minutes ..... but that I could stay while he was gone and look around.

I'd always get a little anxious when thinking of stopping by, mostly because it was just difficult to navigate around all the clutter so I would visit only a few times a year. But occasionally I'd find what I considered gems in there, usually tucked away in a cardboard box in the aisle or plastic tub under the racks or under a stack of records. They were rarely priced, so I'd wait seemingly 10-15 minutes for each selection taken forward, while he consulted the internet (the dreaded Discogs I assume) and giving me time to bounce it around and decide in my thoughts what I was willing to pay ..... and he'd always quote a lower price than what I was guessing or expecting.  

It was mostly him running the place. He once had a younger kid working with him. Maybe a young end of 20-something. The kid was bright and remembered things. I bought a Chick Corea record once and returned a month or two later and the kid asked me how I liked the Chick Corea record. Most people might remember a previous day customer purchase but not an obscure purchase from two months earlier. by an old dude buying weird old dude music. That kid was there for a few months and gone. 

Other than that, it was Brian, seven days a week. He told me several months ago that it was his goal to pay off his house in the next year or two. He inferred that the shop had become a burden ..... or perhaps the burden was in the number of hours and days he was spending there. I don't know what his plan was after he paid off his house. Sadly, he never will realize it. 

Or maybe he did? I don't know the rest of his story. Hopefully so.

Pictured are a couple of the 'gems' (in my mind) that I found in his shop over the years. 

There are currently a couple cards taped to the entrance, each with heartfelt, beautiful messages to a friend lost. Looking inside, the shop appears to be untouched, as he left it after closing .... Like he'll be returning in the morning. I couldn't help but notice his empty chair .... like maybe he had stepped into the back room to retrieve another box of records or compact discs, or to turn on some lights.

Rest in Peace, Brian. I wish we had gotten to know each other a little better. 




Sunday, January 21, 2024

Melt to Nothing

Sat at a railroad crossing as the mid-afternoon train meandered by in the rain ..... one of those trains with seemingly 500 cars and in no hurry to get to their destination. With my ipod on shuffle and a live version of the Counting Crows song, 'Mr Jones' playing, (Yes, I'm that old to still employ an ipod and actually even older). Admiring the graffiti art as each railcar passed by, lost in thought. When the last railcar had passed and the crossing gates rose, there was a moment of confusion. "What do I do now?" I was so lost in thought that shifting into DRIVE didn't feel like an obvious option. 

From there it was onto a downtown antique mall that I've wandered through dozens of times the past ten years so I never expect any longer to find anything of interest. But I came across a vinyl copy of 'Maraqupa' by Damien Jurado. The missing piece of DJ's recordings!! Then outside on the sidewalk, crossed paths with a lady who smiled at me, making my day. 

And that's all it takes to cause me to melt to nothing ..... A smile from a stranger.

I think you need to smile a little more often once your past 65 years old (I'm closing in on 68) and you've started acknowledging the possibility of things that you never acknowledged for those first 65 years of your life. So you need an extra smile or two each day to assist in dealing with those fears that I can't even bring myself to mention by name.

Wednesday, January 17, 2024

Icemageddon

I sure hope that 'Icemageddon 2024' is finally over with. The Arctic Circle can have their weather back. No encores are needed. I'm really getting entirely too old for this slipping and falling shit. All it takes is one dumb decision and a fraction-of-a-second lapse in attention to detail. 

One positive note: Through the two bouts with snow, wind, sleet and freezing rain, the power didn't go out this time. And I learned something new ..... that freezing rain and sleet are two different things. 

A dramatized recreation of the moment yesterday in my life shortly after the freezing rain began to fall. I carefully measured every step after that.

Monday, January 15, 2024

Dress Sharp!!

It's one thing when it's 35 degrees and you see one of those guys out and about wearing a t-shirt and shorts or another guy wearing flip-flops but it's entirely different degree of lunacy when it's 22 degrees with a wind chill factor fifteen degrees lower and you see the same. What are those dudes trying to achieve? And I can't help but look at them, sneer and shake my head. And the frustrating thing is that's most likely the reaction they are going for ..... irritating the senior citizens who can no longer tolerate the conditions or attitudes of youth. 

Saturday, January 13, 2024

Bizarro World

Welcome in!! This is bizarro world ....

Hearing on my window, the freezing rain falling and waiting for the power to go out. 

Phone at 93% battery life and I plugged it in to the charger. 

Feeling tempted to eat and drink everything in the freezer and refrigerator in the next half hour ..... in case the power goes out. So it doesn't go to waste. I suppose I could put it on my back deck as it's twenty degrees outside but last time I did that, the raccoons had a party. 

Pondering setting my thermostat to 95 degrees. (Not sure if that's possible) so it will stay warmer for longer. If there's one thing I recall clearly it was the week without power a couple winters ago. 

Is it obvious that I live in a place where this isn't the winter norm?

Friday, January 12, 2024

Guilt Response or Growing Up Catholic

Damn Catholic upbringing .....

My Alexa asks me if I want to reorder a product that I have a history of ordering. I don't respond and immediately start feeling guilt. After an awkward period of silence between myself and Alexa, I reply, "No." .... so as to be polite. And sure enough, Alexa was still waiting for my response.

But at least I'm not feeling guilty for the remainder of the evening. 

Monday, January 8, 2024

Worries and Stuff

Why is it that whenever I'm just a few steps away from my boss's office, but out of sight due to doorways, walls and corners and wanting to remain anonymous, I still worry that he'll recognize the tones of my sniffles, coughs, throat clearing and footsteps on the stairs?

Saturday, January 6, 2024

Used vs. New

It's funny how I get more excited over the purchase of a used vinyl record compared to a new record.

There's just something about the search through stacks and bins of used vinyl until a keeper is found. It's the idea of discovery! I've found something! It's a piece of history. 

The same concept does not apply to compact discs where brand new is a bigger thrill.

Of course, a new vinyl release by a favorite musician where I have no idea of its existence ..... that's up there with the discovery of used, long sought for, 'holy grail' records. 

And occasionally there's the frustrations of tonight .... to make an exciting used vinyl find only to get home and discover that it's already in your collection. That didn't happen when I was younger and had better powers of memory. Then again, it might have nothing to do with age. It could just be a numbers thing and remembering hundreds of records as compared to remembering 2300 records. 

Thursday, January 4, 2024

New Year Resolution

Historically I've always avoided such bold proclamations but if I were to arrive at a decision on a New Years resolution, it might be to downsize ...... just a little. Towards that goal, I purged myself today of one book and one compact disc. That qualifies as officially following through, right?

Because that might be it for the year!!

I feel bad enough for purging myself of what I consider as the recording of history for a specific time and place.